The Perks of Pregnancy

13 Weeks and chuggin' along. Rubbing my belly and watching it grow as I eat nutritious, healthy foods and exercise daily. Picturing this miracle grow inside me that represents the love my husband and I share and imagining how perfect precious he or she will look..... *bursts bubble* And then reality hits. I grab a cheese danish, plop down on the couch in my pjs I've been in for two days, and watch another depressing episode of daytime television. Better drink water with this snack...makes it easier to come up later when the inevitable daily puke in the kitchen sink session starts. I'm sick daily. Yes, daily. Just barely out…
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What’s now.

I was driving down the interstate to get a massage in the city this morning when I heard that familiar noise.  The same one that always gives my insides a little jolt when I hear it. No matter what I'm doing, it always makes me stop for a second and remember, and ache a bit, and smile. To the left of me in the HOV lane there were two bikes. A guy on one, a woman on the other. It's a beautiful almost Fall weekend and between the weather and the comforting sound that the bikes make I let myself for a moment pretend that the couple on the Harley's…
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the best laid plans…

It's funny to look back on my last post. It was not that long ago and since my "balance and peace" post I have been in quite a little rut. I haven't been able to pinpoint that exact reason why I've been in said rut...it's just been a long month. I do contribute a huge part of it to my 2+ hour a day commute. Despite my efforts I didn't get a job closer to home, so we're in the process of finding a home closer to the job. We did some house hunting this weekend and found a really awesome area and I've got my fingers crossed that something…
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untitled.

I feel like I am on a journey. a spiritual, growing up, peace finding journey. Actually...once I realized this, it became clear that I've been on this journey for almost a year now. At times it seems crazy to think about how much life has changed in the past few years, but when I look at the changes I smile. I used to constantly fight with myself between doing what's right...and doing what feels right.  I almost always did the latter even though I always knew better.  And I almost always felt the blow of consequences that followed. I was frequently frustrated...always confused with what I wanted. Now, for the…
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The Perks of Pregnancy

13 Weeks and chuggin' along. Rubbing my belly and watching it grow as I eat nutritious, healthy foods and exercise daily. Picturing this miracle grow inside me that represents the love my husband and I share and imagining how perfect precious he or she will look..... *bursts bubble* And then reality hits. I grab a cheese danish, plop down on the couch in my pjs I've been in for two days, and watch another depressing episode of daytime television. Better drink water with this snack...makes it easier to come up later when the inevitable daily puke in the kitchen sink session starts. I'm sick daily. Yes, daily. Just barely out…
Read More

What’s now.

I was driving down the interstate to get a massage in the city this morning when I heard that familiar noise.  The same one that always gives my insides a little jolt when I hear it. No matter what I'm doing, it always makes me stop for a second and remember, and ache a bit, and smile. To the left of me in the HOV lane there were two bikes. A guy on one, a woman on the other. It's a beautiful almost Fall weekend and between the weather and the comforting sound that the bikes make I let myself for a moment pretend that the couple on the Harley's…
Read More

the best laid plans…

It's funny to look back on my last post. It was not that long ago and since my "balance and peace" post I have been in quite a little rut. I haven't been able to pinpoint that exact reason why I've been in said rut...it's just been a long month. I do contribute a huge part of it to my 2+ hour a day commute. Despite my efforts I didn't get a job closer to home, so we're in the process of finding a home closer to the job. We did some house hunting this weekend and found a really awesome area and I've got my fingers crossed that something…
Read More

untitled.

I feel like I am on a journey. a spiritual, growing up, peace finding journey. Actually...once I realized this, it became clear that I've been on this journey for almost a year now. At times it seems crazy to think about how much life has changed in the past few years, but when I look at the changes I smile. I used to constantly fight with myself between doing what's right...and doing what feels right.  I almost always did the latter even though I always knew better.  And I almost always felt the blow of consequences that followed. I was frequently frustrated...always confused with what I wanted. Now, for the…
Read More

The Perks of Pregnancy

13 Weeks and chuggin' along. Rubbing my belly and watching it grow as I eat nutritious, healthy foods and exercise daily. Picturing this miracle grow inside me that represents the love my husband and I share and imagining how perfect precious he or she will look..... *bursts bubble* And then reality hits. I grab a cheese danish, plop down on the couch in my pjs I've been in for two days, and watch another depressing episode of daytime television. Better drink water with this snack...makes it easier to come up later when the inevitable daily puke in the kitchen sink session starts. I'm sick daily. Yes, daily. Just barely out…
Read More

What’s now.

I was driving down the interstate to get a massage in the city this morning when I heard that familiar noise.  The same one that always gives my insides a little jolt when I hear it. No matter what I'm doing, it always makes me stop for a second and remember, and ache a bit, and smile. To the left of me in the HOV lane there were two bikes. A guy on one, a woman on the other. It's a beautiful almost Fall weekend and between the weather and the comforting sound that the bikes make I let myself for a moment pretend that the couple on the Harley's…
Read More

the best laid plans…

It's funny to look back on my last post. It was not that long ago and since my "balance and peace" post I have been in quite a little rut. I haven't been able to pinpoint that exact reason why I've been in said rut...it's just been a long month. I do contribute a huge part of it to my 2+ hour a day commute. Despite my efforts I didn't get a job closer to home, so we're in the process of finding a home closer to the job. We did some house hunting this weekend and found a really awesome area and I've got my fingers crossed that something…
Read More

untitled.

I feel like I am on a journey. a spiritual, growing up, peace finding journey. Actually...once I realized this, it became clear that I've been on this journey for almost a year now. At times it seems crazy to think about how much life has changed in the past few years, but when I look at the changes I smile. I used to constantly fight with myself between doing what's right...and doing what feels right.  I almost always did the latter even though I always knew better.  And I almost always felt the blow of consequences that followed. I was frequently frustrated...always confused with what I wanted. Now, for the…
Read More

The Perks of Pregnancy

13 Weeks and chuggin' along. Rubbing my belly and watching it grow as I eat nutritious, healthy foods and exercise daily. Picturing this miracle grow inside me that represents the love my husband and I share and imagining how perfect precious he or she will look..... *bursts bubble* And then reality hits. I grab a cheese danish, plop down on the couch in my pjs I've been in for two days, and watch another depressing episode of daytime television. Better drink water with this snack...makes it easier to come up later when the inevitable daily puke in the kitchen sink session starts. I'm sick daily. Yes, daily. Just barely out…
Read More

What’s now.

I was driving down the interstate to get a massage in the city this morning when I heard that familiar noise.  The same one that always gives my insides a little jolt when I hear it. No matter what I'm doing, it always makes me stop for a second and remember, and ache a bit, and smile. To the left of me in the HOV lane there were two bikes. A guy on one, a woman on the other. It's a beautiful almost Fall weekend and between the weather and the comforting sound that the bikes make I let myself for a moment pretend that the couple on the Harley's…
Read More

the best laid plans…

It's funny to look back on my last post. It was not that long ago and since my "balance and peace" post I have been in quite a little rut. I haven't been able to pinpoint that exact reason why I've been in said rut...it's just been a long month. I do contribute a huge part of it to my 2+ hour a day commute. Despite my efforts I didn't get a job closer to home, so we're in the process of finding a home closer to the job. We did some house hunting this weekend and found a really awesome area and I've got my fingers crossed that something…
Read More

untitled.

I feel like I am on a journey. a spiritual, growing up, peace finding journey. Actually...once I realized this, it became clear that I've been on this journey for almost a year now. At times it seems crazy to think about how much life has changed in the past few years, but when I look at the changes I smile. I used to constantly fight with myself between doing what's right...and doing what feels right.  I almost always did the latter even though I always knew better.  And I almost always felt the blow of consequences that followed. I was frequently frustrated...always confused with what I wanted. Now, for the…
Read More

The Perks of Pregnancy

13 Weeks and chuggin' along. Rubbing my belly and watching it grow as I eat nutritious, healthy foods and exercise daily. Picturing this miracle grow inside me that represents the love my husband and I share and imagining how perfect precious he or she will look..... *bursts bubble* And then reality hits. I grab a cheese danish, plop down on the couch in my pjs I've been in for two days, and watch another depressing episode of daytime television. Better drink water with this snack...makes it easier to come up later when the inevitable daily puke in the kitchen sink session starts. I'm sick daily. Yes, daily. Just barely out…
Read More

What’s now.

I was driving down the interstate to get a massage in the city this morning when I heard that familiar noise.  The same one that always gives my insides a little jolt when I hear it. No matter what I'm doing, it always makes me stop for a second and remember, and ache a bit, and smile. To the left of me in the HOV lane there were two bikes. A guy on one, a woman on the other. It's a beautiful almost Fall weekend and between the weather and the comforting sound that the bikes make I let myself for a moment pretend that the couple on the Harley's…
Read More

the best laid plans…

It's funny to look back on my last post. It was not that long ago and since my "balance and peace" post I have been in quite a little rut. I haven't been able to pinpoint that exact reason why I've been in said rut...it's just been a long month. I do contribute a huge part of it to my 2+ hour a day commute. Despite my efforts I didn't get a job closer to home, so we're in the process of finding a home closer to the job. We did some house hunting this weekend and found a really awesome area and I've got my fingers crossed that something…
Read More

untitled.

I feel like I am on a journey. a spiritual, growing up, peace finding journey. Actually...once I realized this, it became clear that I've been on this journey for almost a year now. At times it seems crazy to think about how much life has changed in the past few years, but when I look at the changes I smile. I used to constantly fight with myself between doing what's right...and doing what feels right.  I almost always did the latter even though I always knew better.  And I almost always felt the blow of consequences that followed. I was frequently frustrated...always confused with what I wanted. Now, for the…
Read More